WHAT TO DO WITH MY DAY

i watch vhs’ when i’m bummed. my tv just broke. so now i’m double bummed.

god, i fucking love my friends.

in other news, i’d just like to acknowledge that most of my tumblr feed is super queer and it fills me with joy. i’m so glad to know the people i know and i’m real glad to have learned all the things i’ve learned. not everyone gets to go from mormon to awesome. jus sayin.

fuck today!

a lot of sad and tough things have been going on in my close community lately, and it’s hard when you feel so connected to the people involved in them so much that you feel like shit too. it’s a terrible and wonderful feeling all at once. but it also just makes you feel downright helpless. especially when you don’t know what to do to help/can’t make yourself reach out because you’re nervous or scared to. i want to share the things i’ve been through, tell people i understand how it feels to barely recognize yourself, but i get so scared putting myself out there when i’m just barely on the okay side myself for once. i get scared of losing my grip. i also get worried that when it comes down to it i won’t help at all. i know support is the best thing but i don’t wanna screw anything up.

also, fuck feeling lonely. something i still struggle with too much. so frustrating.

if this doesn’t work, then what the fuck will?

not feeling so hot today, despite valiant attempts all day to snap the fuck out of it. so very frustrating.

eww gotta get out of the house.